i yawn, scratch my nose,
rub my blurry red eyes
and the first thought
i think is of the
oncoming
1 year ever-present
*thing*
that is nearly upon me (us)
and my first thought is
emptiness
despair
doom
and gloom
blah blah blah
but i force myself
to snap out of
this sadness
and stop this
maddening
feeling sorry for myself
bullshit
and remember that
while some things end,
other things begin
and that's what i'm
hopeful for,
that's what
allows me to
get my lazy ass
out of bed
every day
lately.
(i know i will never lose you completely....that was never meant to be)
